This year's

Random

Name changes:

One

Failed Courses:

1

Changes of school:

None

Teeth cavities:

None

Broken Bones:

1

Trips in the ambulance:

None

Attempted Suicides:

None

Changes of hair colour:

2, I think

Clothestyle changed:

1 or 2

Friends and Love

New Friends:

Some new, some renewed

Boy/Girlfriends:

Same as the last 3 years

Kissed someone:

Yes

Has someone broken up with you:

Yes

Have you broken up with someone:

Yes

Let someone down:

Probably

Been used:

Sadly, very much

Being told "I love you":

Everyday until 3 months ago

Enjoyments

Being drunk:

Yes

New interests:

Just renewed some old ones

Conserts:

2

Countries visited:

Denmark

Good and Bad times

How well have you been feeling this year, 1 to 5:

Started 5, ends 1

Laughed so hard you fell down:

Probably

Cried more than 5 times:

Ofcourse

Thought of suicide:

Yes

Been to a funeral:

No

Lost a friend or friends:

Loads, even though they weren't mine

The best

Fooling around:

Joakim

Song:

Stone Sour: Zzyxz RD

12 Stones: World so Cold

Movie:

Did 300 come this year?

Consert:

Mustasch

Food:

The Pai

Friends:

Johanna and Lobin

Sports:

Hockey

Buy:

My new coat

Oddities

Yesterday we were at my uncle's place and had dinner. Barbeque ftw imo. After food, me and mom bathed. Outside! Epix. On our way home I asked my parents why hobbies are so differently seen. If a girl has horses as a hobby and spends several hours out in the stable with the horses and all she ever talks about is horses, it's seen as a healthy hobby, but if a guy sits infront of the computer as much as the girl spends time outside, it's not seen as a good a hobby as horses. And I wonder why. Then they could argue that with horses one gets outside in the fresh air, but then we came to think about books. It's also seen as good if a child spends time reading a book, but isn't that the same as with a computer? You sit inside, staring at something for a long time. Very odd indeed, this.


Outside spa for the win!

Leiliel is a good way to 65 now, and I've just started Terrokar. Damn, that place is dull :( Me no likey. Hopefully I'll ding 70 somewhere in Nagrand. That leaves Bladesedge, Shadowmoon and Netherstorm for money grinding. I'm still going for my Vindicator's Redemption, but I am going to need some nice dps gear, guess I'll go for that in instances. Wonder if I can get my hands on Sonic Spear... Do not like Murmur!


Most beautiful design ever

We all have our wishes

Christmas Eve passed rather noticed. My small family sure know how to entertain ourselves. Only thing I missed was the snow, but when it's dark outside, it doesn't matter. I haven't got much to report actually. Well, I didn't get my sexy Sharkman wrapped up and for me to unwrap, but hey, where the hell do one find a 2metre long, blue ninja?


I Lurve My Horsie


Coz I has a big car

Mostly Pictures

Psyrack

Leiliel

There are some people in my life that truly are special. Those are the people who stand by my side through everything. I am forever gratefull for their existance and I love them conditionless. I have my big bear, and my Bleach-girl and Nnoitra and at the moment, they are the ones keeping me up. So even if I might not say it. *switch on Cartman voice*

I love you, guys!

The feast of Winter Veil

Winter Veil has come to Azeroth, Kalimdor and Outlands and that offers a variety of fun quests and happenings. Well, more or less fun. As I am on my third year in WoW, these events have lost their charm. Of course Valentine still rocks and the Children's week, but all the others are getting pretty dull. OK then, on to my private feast of Winter Veil. The Eve of Winter Veil will be spent at home with the small part of my relatives and when New Year's Eve arrives I've got 3 offers :D I will probably go with the Cry More Crew to spend a night with excessive drinking and /wrists and /buckets and /lepras. Just because we love to.

And for all of those out there who have never seen a gnome paladin, here's something for you.

Today's soundtrack : 12 Stones - World So Cold

Just because they love me

Sometimes it's good to be a girl. Sometimes it gives you favours. Sometimes it just results in a massive grind, just for you. Just because my guild seems to have a shitheap of farming time for me. :D



The people that are old hardcore raiders should recognize this.



And this :D

Damn I feel epic and a little bit of legendary too.

It's good to be a girl....

It was a long time ago

Firstly today, My New Horsie.



Me likes :D

Secondly. I was looking through some of my old sketchpads and found an old poem I wrote 2003. It got no title...

Please, take away the pain that haunts my nights
The evil hand, which hits me over and over again
Make it stop saying my name, make it stop saying that I'm worthless
It hits me harder and harder, the more I deny it
It splits me in two, the raw, true me and the smiling substitute
Soon I'm going to break and destroy everything I've built up
Stop hitting me! It hurts!
I know that you are telling the truth!
But I don't want that kind of truth, I want to be loved
No, I know it's not for me
I hope, someday, that you will hit me so hard that I'll die
So, loneliness, hit me harder!


I also found this one, which isn't as good, but somehow frightfully apropriate. No title either

I'd love to know you
I'd love to hope and believe
I want to give you my everything
I want to see the heat in your eyes
Lifegiving heat
But, no. It's not meant for me
Maybe, maybe we had something long ago
I still keep it inside of me
The heat, the light, the life
Words, words, words, but for someone this means everything
Someone. Who? I don't remember anymore
Someone whose eyes could answer with heat and cold
Come to me, tell me you're mine
But you look another way
And have soon forgotten me

Stuffed

This is me before the X-mas buffé me and my realtives attended today. Little did I know that I more or less would roll out of the room. ;p Too much to choose from and too much eaten. But as a good "Englishman" I ended it all with a cup of tea. No sugar, just milk.



As come for my wishlist I've desided to evolve it a tinybit with links to what I want. Simple minds, simple amusements. Nevermind the shops I've choose to link.

Parfume:
http://www.kicks.se/Doft/461/?brand=826&sort=0&display=4790
Parfume:
http://www.kicks.se/Doft/40/Diesel-Fuel-For-Life/
Headset:
http://www.expert.se/Product/Product.aspx?id=1492209

The other things I want, I cannot link to.

It's been a busy week, and there's a busy week to come too.
In short: I'm tired.

Those that disappeared

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I've burned my disks

Thrown your letters into the fire

And the ashes lay in drifts

The Sunmatchboy smiles

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He prays and begs:

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Set your thoughts on fire

With your black and silent tears

And we know and you know everything ends

Slowly she walks out of the room

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Come, let us leave

Let us travel somewhere

Travel far away from here

Let us become those that disappeared

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Come and let us forget death

He smokes in our bed

Come and warm yourself by the embers

Of our smoking home

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The floors sing again:

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You gives us the creeps

With your black and silent tears

And we know and you know everything ends

Slowly she walks out of the room

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Come, let us leave
Let us travel somewhere
Travel far away from here
Let us become those that disappeared

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The camera slides over golden fields

Yes, we know that you need help

This city makes me mad tonight

You will never find your way home

Want to give you everything tonight

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You will never be yourself again

You will never be yourself again

You will never be yourself again

You will never be yourself again

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The camera slides over golden fields

Yes, we know that you need help

This city makes me mad tonight

You will never be yourself again

And I think my soul is dying of starvation

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One gets tired of your damn whining

One gets tired of your damn whining

One gets tired of your damn whining

One gets tired of your damn whining

One gets tired of your damn whining

One gets tired of your damn whining

One gets tired of your damn whining

If You Left Me Now

I would wake up in the middle of the night
and take a long, long walk
I would let my eyes meet the eyes of others
in a foreign town
I wouldn't be in a rush
with meeting someone new
I've got plenty with myself
just like you
I would breathe in the emptiness that was left
if you left me now

I would be sitting on a train to Paris
and let Stockholm be
I would get that time from myself
that I said that I would want
I could let myself dream
a hundred miles through Europe
about a stranger
as trusting as you
I would try my lips against someone else
if you left me now

I would be able to live without that look
that gets me out of balance
I would miss those moments we have
when we've just stopped fighting
I would maybe seek out
contacts that I've lost
I guess there is someone you would call
if I wasn't here

I would maybe find someone younger
like a feather in my hat
It could be too empty if noone was there
that held me warm in the night
But I wouldn't have patience enough
to be understood
Noone knows me
as good as you
I would be stuck in my loneliness again
if you left me now

Same Thing but Different

Today I got some nice new gear for Lil'Lei. I'm starting to look like an Outlander. Finally!

Leiliel: Lvl 60 Paladin

Stats unbuffed and in healing gear

Str: 140......................................Bonus Damage: 238

Agi: 67.......................................Bonus Healing: 300

Sta: 191......................................Hit: 0%

Int: 206.....................................Crit: 7,15%

Spi: 99.......................................Penetration: 0%

Armor: 5038..............................Mana reg: 105

Damage gear

Str: 238......................................Dmg: 351-436

Agi: 158.....................................Speed: 3.60

Sta: 267.....................................Power: 718

Int: 86.......................................Hit: 10

Spi: 74.......................................Crit: 7.90

Armor: 3910..............................Expertise: 0

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And yesterday I said I had no idea what I wanted for X-mas. Well, today I got some ^^

I'd like:

Pair of headphones with microphone

A pair of red shoes

2 new piercings

The new Diesel perfume

Wohoo, maybe there's hope, even for me :D

3 moons and a stripe

Today I looked up at the sky of Hellfire Peninsula and realized it was a long time ago i gazed at any sky, be it real or a bunch of pixels. People should take more time to do nothing constructive, like looking at stars or talking to someone.


Soon it'll be christmas and I'm blank. I'm not looking forward to it as I used to and my wishlist is more or less nonexistant. Well, I'd love a pair of nice headphones with a microphone, but dunno if I can afford that.

How far will the far side take me?
How far can I go? Can I go?

To Where Does the Door Lead?

Today was a big day for Leiliel. Today she ventured out into the unknown and with proud steps she set foot on The Stairs of Destiny on the far side of The Dark Portal. But it wasn't just a step into another world, it was a step into another realm. From Magtheridon to Trollbane, the step of independence was hard. To leave what I knew and go to what i thought I knew.



Hearts are breaking all around me, but mostly my own. How do you tell someone goodbye without saying it? How do you tell a child the reality is harsh and that you no longer belong? How do the lover tell the hater that she'll wait? How far can one ignore before slashing the troath of the foolhardy one? How does one tell it's time to leave? We've split. All over the place. When is it the time for Sorry and when is it time for Forgive me?



If you've seen the movie 1408 this will sound familiar.
If you se a door and an attached doorframe standing in the middle of a room, no walls adjoining. If you open the door, will it be the same room on the other side, or does the door lead into something else even if that else isn't around the door?

To all this I've got but one answer: I don't know.