Changes

Yesterday when I was driving home from Lobin n Robin it struck me. I'm changed. As I later spoke with Xali, I confessed I'm confused about him and Joakim. I'd love to get back with Joakim, I want what we had, but it will never be the same. The thing that happened has changed us too much probably. And at the same time, I want to explore my chances with Xali. But as he himself said, if I ditch him once, I can't go back. I'm stuck in the middle here.

It starts with pain...

So now I've come home from Copenhagen and the weekend I spent there with Xali. I must say, I've never been out walking so much in such crappy weather. But I shouldn't complain, it wasn't me who lost my baggage. *chuckle* Anyhow. The hotel was such a dream. Our room was blue and with a view over the inner yard, which also served as a dining room. Even the carpet was lovable, blue and white tiles :p Sadly, when we decided to go visit the zoo on Saturday, it was outright storming. But we defied death and went anyhow. Then we visited the Ripley's - Believe it or not museum. Odd, I say, very odd indeed. All weekend has been an orgie in walking and good food and spirits. But I have to agree with Catharina who once stated that spooning with another human should be considered a Human Right thingie. It makes such wonders. :D Spooning for the people!

But then, the big thing people ask me. Am I in Love? Tbh, I haven't got a clue. I'm just kinda confused of what I feel and to identify what that is. I just feel I have to set things straight about Joakim, get him out of my mind, before I can start figuring other things out^^ But one thing I know, and that is that I truly enjoy Xali's company.

Mindboggling

There's something genuinly fascinating about this drawing. It's pure evil intent and weakened soul. It's total suppression and undoubted trampled self esteem. It's unconditional love and disturbing faith. I just can't stop looking at it.

Where the hell am I going?

I'm confused. I don't know where my life is going. There's too much opposite feelings interfering with eachother. I don't know if I should be happy or not. I don't know if I should keep going on this road I'm on. I don't know if I should miss him or be happy he left. All I know is that I'm focused enough to start functioning as a person again.

I'm starting to get nervous about this weekend, but a good nervous. I'm really looking forward to just let everything go and just enjoy the moment. Eff Eff Ess, we're going to the Zoo :D


"I dreamt I was missing, and you were so scared.
But noone would listen, cos noone else cared."

"I mean nothing to you, the little things give you away."

Some things never change

Yesterday I spent with my darling Lobin, and after a few hours of playing wow and chatting we went for a smoke. After a few mins Lobin says to me. "Damn, Jonna, we were so close in compulsory school and had so many mutual interests. Then we lost contact for, what was it, five years? And now we're back on track again, and it's still the fucking same."
All I could do was smile and agree.. It surely feels like nothing ever changed, except for our looks.
I swear, he's the one I ought to marry and live happily ever after with. But, nah... We're too good friends for that.

Next weekend I'm going to Copenhagen with this dude.

Thankfully that is not how he looks for real. ^^

( )Aerophobia - Flying
( ) Aikmophobia - Knives
( )Ailurophobia - Cats
( )Akrophobia - Heights
( )Algophobia - Pain
( )Androphobia - Men
(x)Anthropophobia - Humans
(x)Araknophobia - Spiders
(/)Astraphobia - Lightning, the sky, stars
(x)Autophobia - Loneliness
(x)Bacillophobia - Microorganisms
(/)Bakteriophobia - Bacteria
(x)Batrachophobia - Coldblooded animals
( )Bibliophobia - Books
(x)Carcinomatophobia - Cancer
(x)Coulrophobia - Clowns
( )Cynophobia - Dogs
( )Cyprianophobia - Prostitutes
( )Dendrophobia - Trees
(x)Dentophobia - Dentists
(/)Emetophobia - Vomiting
( )Entomophobia - Insects
( )Equinophobia - Horses
( )Ergasiophobia - Work
( )Erotophobia - Physical love
( )Erytrophobia - Red colour, blushing
( )Etnophobia - People of a special kind
( )Fobophobia - Phobias
( )Fonophobia - Sound
( )Fotophobia - Light
( )Grafophobia - Writings
( )Gymnophobia - Nudity
( )Gynophobia - Women
( )Harpaxophobia - Robbers
( )Hedonophobia - Fun
( )Hematophobia - Blood
(x)Hodophobia - Travels
( )Homophobia - Homosexuality
( )Hoplophobia - Weapons
(/)Hydrophobia - Water
( )Hypnophobia - Sleep
( )Iktyphobia - Fishes
(x)Kainophobia - New things, situationanxiety
(x)Kakorrafiaphobia - Failure
( )Kardiophobia - Heartdecease
(x)Keraunophobia - Thunder
(x)Klaustrophobia - Small spaces
( )Koprophobia - Feces
( )Kromophobia - Colours
(/)Linonophobia - Strings
( )Logophobia - Words
(x)Mekanophobia - Machinery
(/)Mykophobia - Mushrooms
(/)Mysophobia - Dirt
(x)Mytophobia - Lies
(/)Nekrophobia - Death, dead things
(/)Nosophobia - Sickness
(x)Nyctophobia - Things that can be in the dark
( )Ornitophobia - Birds
(/)Osfresiophobia - Bodyodour
( )Paraskevidekatriaphobia - The date Friday the thirteenth
(/)Pedophobia - Children
(x)Peniaphobia - Poverty
(/)Podophobia - Feet
(x)Poinephobia - Punishment
( )Pyrophobia - Fire
( )Sesquippedaliophobia - Long words
( )Scholionophobia - Schools
( )Sitophobia - Food
(x)Skopophobia - Being watched
(/)Skotophobia - The dark
(x)Spermophobia - Sperms
(x)Tafophobia - Being buried alive
( )Teknophobia - Thechnology
(/)Thanatophobia - Death, to die
( )Triskaidekaphobia - The number 13
(x)Xenophobia - Strangers
( )Xyrophobia - Razors
( )Zoophobia - Animals

Happy people don't blog

Happy people don't blog, that's what my friend Emma states. I don't know about that, I blog, and I'm happy now. Although, I do have to admit I blog a lot less now, but that's because I haven't had the time. :D I've dinged 70 with Leiliel now and I'm gonna paste some screens from the journey.

I'm a ShadowPaladin in Zangarmarsh

Goggles in Shadowmoon Valley

Warlock in Blade's Edge Mountains

A little lighter and much redder Leiliel

On my way on a drake

That's the best screens on the journey to lvl 70. I think I have about 300, but most of them are just utter crap.


This year's gonna be a good one, judging from the start of it and I've already planned 2 weekendtrips. One in Copenhagen and one in Stockholm.


"There's something wrong with time.
Youth is wasted on the young
and you don't know what to say until the day after.
Before, there were places you wanted to see when you could afford it
but when you started to make money, there no longer was time to go there.
When you finally dare to tease your hair, you're 30 years too old.
You remember moments when you were happy, but wonders if you knew it
and when you learn there are things you really shouldn't do.
It's probably because you've already done them..."

Never too late for fun

* 1. Schizophrenia --- Do You Hear What I Hear?

* 2. Multiple Personality Disorder --- We Three Kings Disoriented Are

* 3. Dementia --- I Think I'll be Home for Christmas

* 4. Narcissistic --- Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me

* 5. Manic --- Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and Stores and Office and Town and Cars and Buses and Trucks and Trees and.....

* 6. Paranoid --- Santa Claus is Coming to Town to Get Me

* 7. Borderline Personality Disorder --- Thoughts of Roasting on an Open Fire

* 8. Personality Disorder --- You Better Watch Out, I'm Gonna Cry, I'm Gonna Pout, Maybe I'll Tell You Why

* 9. Attention Deficit Disorder --- Silent night, Holy oooh look at the Froggy - can I have a chocolate, why is France so far away?

* 10. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder -- - Jingle Bells,! Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle,Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells

* 11. Tourette Syndrome – Silent night. Fuck you! Holy night. All is calm. Asshole! All is bright.

The Day After the Day Before

I'm tired, I smell of smoke and I'm hungover. In short, a good party.

Thanks to all that made yesterday/today so memorable.

Special Thanks to:

Lobin

Robin

Adam

Danne

Rebecka

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Hopefully there will be pics from the party itself, but it all depends on that LayZ 08..

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Bai